Sunday, 13 May 2012

Braver than I believe.

I'll be the first to say the last week has been kinda crappy. All these grown up things have been happening and being a "grown up", I've been forced to deal with them and honestly, it's taken a lot out of me. Strangely enough, at a time where I'm meant to be strong, I've felt more vulnerable than I have for quite a long time. Crying at the drop of a hat is all well and good when you're home and alone, not quite so good when you're in the middle of a lecture or sitting on the bus. But, with lots of hugs and multiple cups of tea, I've come out alive and things aren't so bad now. Even if I do have an important test tomorrow morning and I'm not retaining anything about bidirectional replication or regulation of transcription.

The thing I have learnt lately, is that I can be bloody stubborn when I'm upset or sick or stressed or... Whatever. I think I'm just a stubborn person, and that makes me feel just terrible. "Karagh, it's all going to be okay." No, no it won't be, not until it actually is and I know things are going to be just fine. Yep, stubborn. I can only imagine how annoying it is to the people who choose to deal with me, but for some reason, they stick around. I don't think they realise how much I appreciate them.

This annoyingly random and short blog post is mainly me making myself keep up with my writing. So to anyone who still reads this, my deepest apologies for the lack of exciting events happening in my life at the moment. With exams coming up and what feels like a 10 page long To-Do List, things are a bit uninspiring and tiring. But you know, apart from a current lack of interest in university, impending doom in regards to my academic transcript this semester and other things that are distracting me three months before they've even happened... Life is good and I really shouldn't be complaining about anything. My ever lovely relationship is keeping me sane, I'm relatively on top of things (now anyway), and I may be moving in a few weeks. Oh, and I'm seeing my darling Johnny in Dark Shadows tomorrow. It really doesn't get much better than this.

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